Relationship - The Love Journey of Lakshmi

Is love behavioral?

Posted on 21/04/202521/04/2025 by Lakshmi

We were talking about men.
However I don’t know quite well anymore how the conversation went.

It came a bit out of the blue, when I said it.

Nothing came after that, but it felt right to say it this way.

Fast and a bit sharp.
To make sure it was coming out right.

Mainly because I was investigating my time, what kind of man that I like.

Because we can see the people for who we think we are.
Cultural beings, living in their own space, perhaps minding their own business.
Dividing their time how they like, with a peace of mind.

Where we are making a choice for our own sake, perhaps even with our heart.

A journey I have been trying to discover.
To figure out for myself.

Therefore it wasn’t weird to say this.
Have this question.

However, it was something more final.

Where this question started to become alive for me.

‘Is love behavioral?’

Can the start of a love relationship be unstable?

Posted on 29/03/202520/04/2025 by Lakshmi

How can something that is unstable be the start of a relationship?

And why is this so important?

For the simple fact that it makes it interesting.

And perhaps that is just important to know about me.

But I believe that it is important that the start of one of my relationships is unstable. And that the start of the other relationships are subject to change.

At least the meaning of what fluidity means, when it comes to relationships.

But I guess I need to write more on this topic.
What it means is that the start of a relationship is unstable.

Because honestly, what I know and what I have seen is that most relationships start from people that are unstable, not so much that relationship part.

Where this insecurity I felt is leaving me and it would be possible that I would be stable as a person, however the start of that relationship is unstable.

A positive love message

Posted on 26/03/202526/03/2025 by Lakshmi

For me to say that the light I have found in myself is that there is no shame in the road I have embarked.

Staying alone for as long as I could, to let the world know that underneath all those questions why I wasn’t married, didn’t have children and all those other pieces of advice with the best intentions.

Are no longer making me doubt myself and where I proudly can say that I made it this far.

The world looks promising to me and I believe a lot comes from the fact, because I stayed alone.
That I didn’t get into a relationship for just some reason or got married because someone told me that it was a good idea or any other thing that made me bend to the ways of society.

It is the liberty I feel right now, that I will commit whenever the time is right for me.
Whenever I am ready for it.

I believe this is the only reason to commit and go about.
To find that partner for love or for life.

However, it doesn’t matter.

The message that I want to be known is that it is ok to choose your own path and find whatever suits you best.
In every aspect of life, not just love.

Because sometimes we don’t know, let alone we know what someone else should be doing.
In whatever way.

Let everyone find out what they like and what kind of life they want to live.

If that is one involves being married, with children or just alone, it doesn’t matter.

The most import part is that you are happy.

A feeling of ‘love disappointment’

Posted on 23/03/202523/03/2025 by Lakshmi

It was just a feeling I felt.
Perhaps even that stuck on me for this long.

A disappointment that we can have that kind of relationship.
Entertain it while it lasts and then when looking back feeling this disappointment.

I mean, we can have a relationship and end it for the reasons why.
They can be good or not.

We can hesitate before breaking up, even second guessing if we should do it all.

At least something I did, when having these relationships where I was feeling this disappointment long after.

I am talking about years and years.
Which I hope explains how deep this feeling must have been.

I mean we can come together, entertain what happens and have those love experiences, to make it worthwhile for ourselves.

All those feelings are real and we can find our answers that bring us further.
That we understand we are relationship material.

Whatever that truly means.

What I want to say is that these relationships I have had weren’t matching how I am, as a person.

And so I was feeling disappointed about those kinds of relationships.

Was it a relationship in the first place? Is something that is coming up now.
Or just something I believed it was?

To give it a frame?

Because we can do those things that are part of what we believe is a relationship.

However, does that make it a relationship?

It is your story, your love life

Posted on 21/03/202521/03/2025 by Lakshmi

It is those words we tell ourselves, about others.
That can keep us stabilized in a place.

Where we might not want to be.

Single and alone as an example.

It is the story we keep repeating what we think and like.

In silence, when we fall asleep.
Perhaps even when we sit with those people, who are in that relationship.

Where we think we are so much smarter and we would never do anything like that.
How stupid they are and that we never want that kind of relationship.

Just saying the words, to make it clear.

True is not the right word, since we can not tell.
It is not our story, not our love life.

Instead of saying what we think. What we think is happening.
What kind of relationship these people are having.

We know now that this is not true.

Since it is not our story, not our love life.

And that is the judgement we need to make.

We need to say that it is not our story, not our love life.

Where everything stays to those in that kind of relationship.
Where it belongs.

When understanding what this means.
It opens up for ourselves, perhaps that relationship that is for us.

That story of your love life.

Love happens when we keep our legs closed

Posted on 19/03/202519/03/2025 by Lakshmi

The starting point of all of this is, with advice one of these women was seeking.

I don’t know anymore if it was for herself, that she was on the go to find her answer why this happened to her.
Or to get a clearer view on how to help these kinds of women.

She went to a guy that was giving spiritual advice.
He was wearing a mask.

I thought it was odd, but when it comes to spirituality it is supposed to be like that.
To prevent people thinking it is a person who is saying it and the words come from them directly.

A way to make sure that message comes across, to not lose its power and have it spread as it should.

From this spiritual entity.
Some guy wearing a mask.

He answered fast, like he forgot to breathe or something.
It made me aware of those words to keep them stored where they should.
When this woman asked what this advice would be for those women out there.

He said : ‘Keep your legs closed’.

His words were cut short and they felt sharp.

It could make you angry if you didn’t understand it was spiritual.

It was those words that stayed with me, throughout my journey ever since I heard them.

The princess and the ring of love

Posted on 26/02/202525/03/2025 by Lakshmi

The story of the princess and the ring of love is about finding that love that fits your standard and lives up to your expectation.

Whatever that might be.

What is a love relationship?

Posted on 11/01/202511/01/2025 by Lakshmi

I believe a question nobody really thinks about.
At least I never spent any second thinking of it.

Until it came my way.

When I was thinking about it for the first time I realized it is something we take for granted.

Perhaps that is a bit too harsh to say.

I mean, just that it is there, without really realizing what it means.

I think that is closer to reality.

A love spell

Posted on 23/12/202423/12/2024 by Lakshmi

My vision when it comes to men is dark as days and I will tell you why.

They told me lies for their own sake.
Put blame on my shoulder, to avoid taking their responsibility.
Named me names and spread them for people to hear someone I wasn’t.
Went behind my back with another girl or tried to be with me while they were already involved.
Used me as a shield for their own protection.
Making me feel worthless by the words they used.
Touched me at places without my consent.
Walked away with my pride, to tell other people how great they were.
Then smiled at me, like nothing ever happened.

One punched me in the face, but I have to say he was gay.
The other thought it was ok to harass me, because he didn’t get his way.

Is love to meet halfway?

Posted on 16/12/202416/12/2024 by Lakshmi

What I try to say with meeting halfway is to be aware that we don’t have to take things for granted as such. Don’t have to lower our standards for the sake of a relationship, marriage, someone else or even for ourselves.

That is not the point of meeting halfway.

To me meeting halfway is that yes, sometimes things can be a bit out of control and we don’t know exactly what is happening.

I guess that is the road that we should be taking. A path to follow. For us to know we would be meeting that significant other halfway of wherever we are going.

To know, it will happen someday in the future.