The Love Journey of Lakshmi
To complete a task that makes you so happy, before doing anything else, could be : ‘The sparkle of a princess crown’.
Yes, I know I just made that up, but it sounds nice.
Don’t you think?
I think yes.
I am going to use this now more often.
Because we all can use a little laughter and foolishness that makes us smile.
Nice we are agreeing on this.
In my imagination I am now shaking your hand.
Thank you for being on this journey with me.
I hope you are as nice as I think you are.
Working in a restaurant I see a lot of people.
Young, old, women, men, blondes and couples of every age and race.
‘A representation of the world’, someone once told me.
It never appeared to me like this or how I looked at it and it surprised me a little bit that this is what this person has said.
It is just to say, that there is much more happening than people just coming to eat some food.
We were sitting close to the water.
Not that we were at the beach or sitting on the edge of a fountain.
It was a big pond, at least this how I would call it.
The quirking of the frogs, if that is a pronunciation of the sound they are making, sometimes interupted our conversation.
They were not in that pond we were sitting at, however they were in a little water, close to that.
Perhaps it was something that they wanted to say, however it was only the loudness of their sounds that could come that far.
But when it comes to asexuality.
I have actually found something else. Also.
My journey of love is not just about the things I find that come from my love relationships.
Because love starts with the connection with myself.
Of Course we ‘sort of know’ and there are books written about this.
But I am actually also practising it.
Sometimes I just search things on the internet, because I am just interested.
Perhaps it is connected with me being a Sagittarius, that I am open to learning.
Lately I found out that is also a mechanism for me to raise my energy, or better to say fill up my battery.
As convenient as it is.
It is just not that I want to know something specific.
The following is what I was reading :
‘Can Asexuals have sex?’
The first time I was in Lisbon, I went to places to see what the city was like.
I was amazed, better to say surprised about the openness of sexuality.
Not to say that there was a lot of sex in the streets, but for example gay people walking hand in hand. Openly.
Just a lot of gay people being there. Generally.
Not that they were open about their sexuality.
And not so many people being bothered about it.
I have kissed him already many times.
But this kiss, was a first.
Perhaps even a different feeling.
Sometimes he kisses me like he really wants to have me.
I have had one time that he kissed me and I could taste that his mind was somewhere where, he shouldn’t be.
It is not something that is coming of age, or perhaps it is exactly just that.
When it comes to love.
Age is really a thing.
It is funny.
Whatever is happening on dating apps.
I have had this experience many times.
‘That I was looking for something casual’.
Those were the exact words I have been using.
I have found that the meaning of casual has taken its own turn.
According to the men that I have been speaking to, about this.
The last one said, that brought this back to my mind :
‘Over here something casual means usually just having sex’.
He ended with some laughter.
‘hahaha’, is what he said.