When it comes to relationships I want to take a little bit of a break.
I mean, the last 3 stories I wrote about were about that.
I believe it was essential though, for me to find some answers.
Where it starts and what to expect.
To one day have one.
A relationship.
To understand the meaning behind it.
It is important for me.
A solid ground to know what to expect.
Since I do think a relationship involves expectations.
Better to know that upfront, before starting one.
And that makes sense to me.
Not particularly that I want to say that I have tried without setting those boundaries of expectations.
But since I am going to a different life, perhaps a different way of living.
It is important for me to do things differently.
If it is right, that remains the question.
But why not try and see.
I mean, I am Indian. Where trying is our ground.
Solid and true.
And when we don’t succeed we try again.
It means that I have had relationships, if I can call them that.
Where I parted ways, broke up, was left behind or just didn’t even start with the person involved.
Now I am standing at this point in my life, to do some things differently.
A new decade I am starting and that is the perfect way to do this.
More spiritual it means a new cycle in my life is entering, where this is going to be like it is.
I don’t want to say I have always had the same outcome when it comes to relationships, that I did things the same way.
However, I am feeling it is not the end.
For me at least.
In the sense of finding that relationship that is good for me and that I like.
I have had those experiences of relationships, perhaps even concerned with love.
However, I don’t think so.
This is just me trying again.
What I try to say is that we can do things differently regardless.
Built up in time and space.
To find what makes our heart thick, to see what makes us stronger from the inside and believe in what we didn’t even imagine was there.
And that sounds like love to me.
It is not the knowing of getting involved, starting a relationship or that we get our heart broken. However, it can all happen and is all a possibility.
But the essence of all of this is that we are on the go for something that we would never expect.
Doesn’t that sound lovely?
I think so at least.
It is becoming a quest, perhaps one with an open ending.
Where the beat goes on and on.
An upward spiral where we just keep on going.
A source to live from, to find out, we are loved and accepted for who we are.