The Love Journey of Lakshmi
Something is happening.
And I find it hard to express.
I have been on this road before and I have said things then also.
Is this a mindfuck of what I am thinking?
I can see my thoughts and everything that comes with it.
However, nothing really happens.
I think that is for the better.
And then my life continues again.
To conclude we already know that there are people on earth not looking for love.
A realization when I was writing this story.
It made me think if there is actually someone on earth that does?
We need to trust our intuition, following our senses, to not be fooled with what our eyes are seeing, don’t be afraid of the unknown and take care of the situation.
To be able to come to that point we can only make a choice from the heart.
Because that is the way love goes and the way to heart of the princess.
For the world to read.
All the messages that are there for people to understand.
To understand about me.
My thoughts, feelings and everything else.
To know.
Comprehend.
And to move forward.
What it is they need to know.
Whatever that is.
Although the journey is mine.
Because that is just what it is.
It is the stories as perhaps some entertainment.
But also for those who want to know that it is ok to follow your feelings.
Perhaps to think a bit different.
To take an unknown path in life.
Or just be hopelessly romantic.
I was wondering if boys think the same as girls.
If they think further when they meet someone.
I am not speaking about what they think about getting married, or fantasizing about their outfit at the altar.
But perhaps it is more innocent, or less far fetched.
I don’t know how to explain otherwise, for the simple fact that I am just asking this.
If boys also do that.
It was something that kept my mind occupied.
And that I couldn’t find the words on how to say or even express it.
So, this is what I normally do whenever something like this happens.
I just sit and let the words speak by themselves. Letting my fingers be the extension of what it is that wants to be said on paper.
That is the space the words would come out right.
But the most important thing for me to do, is not just to sit but find the time that there is nothing else.
No need to finish. No boundary of time.
Just me sitting in a space filled with only that.
I don’t really know what it started.
That I was having these thoughts.
For a second it felt like I was having feelings.
For this other person.
But when I felt deeper, they weren’t there.
I don’t know if that was a good thing.
However I was glad I didn’t have any feelings for this person.
Perhaps I had these thoughts just to make sure I was looking deeper.
To rule out that there was something that could lead to something.
As I am still a bit insecure about a new boy that I will be meeting.
Trying to find my stability on what we should be doing.
A kiss, dinner or just a look that will make it all happen.
However, it is my thoughts that are going back in time, just a little bit.
It has been a while since I have heard from a guy I once was seeing.
But it is not that way I am thinking.
That I want him in my life, a regret or a feeling of that I am missing him.
Once I wrote something that is happening before being single.
I called it nothing.
Which basically means, your own thoughts and feelings.
The fruition of this nothing, is my website, with my stories expressing this.
My own love journey, how appropiate.