Flashes before my eyes, when I wander around town.
One of my favorite things to do.
To have a little walk.
You can call it a way of selfcare, spending time with myself.
However alone is not how I feel, when I am on that kind of road.
A pull I feel to go to certain places.
Perhaps even a reason I am getting out of my bed to find what is there.
Not that I am depressed.
Just to realize there is so much more to discover than what we think.
And in a moment of rest, because I was standing in line, waiting for my turn to order.
Since I hadn’t had any coffee that morning.
It was that I could breathe a little and go a bit deeper there in myself.
Not just a way to relax and let the world pass me by.
But a place there and then where I could feel.
My senses and emotions and everything else I might not be able to understand.
It was when I was able to look closer to those flashes I had seen earlier, before my eyes.
Not specific that day or a certain moment in time.
Just something stored in myself that was coming to the surface in that moment of care for myself.
And so I am writing this story about what that could be.
Not what I had in mind this morning, although I knew I was going to write something.
Let me say that life has its own course and it felt right for me to go after this feeling.
The flashes before my eyes is what led me to this place.
Copenhagen Coffee Lab in Lisbon, Portugal.
However it was that I wanted to go to Hygge Cafe instead.
They had a new location close to a shopping store, where I wanted to go later.
Just another feeling I had to buy some new clothes.
Perhaps even a new style.
And that is the truth.
But let me first finish this story.
Or at least the order I had told myself to write the story first and then go shopping afterwards.
A routine I have for a long time, at least for some years, is that writing a story is the first thing I do when I am planning my day.
Before even having my coffee.
Not a nervousness or feeling of eating the frog.
According to google, eating the frog means : the process of identifying your most difficult task of the day and completing it before you do any other work.
A different explanation is to do something you don’t like at the beginning of the day.
But yes, I also don’t know who came up with that sentence of eating the frog.
Writing a story first thing in the morning is just something that makes me happy and something I want to do before anything else.
Perhaps I should find a nice sentence for that.
Something with a princess, to keep it close to the sentence of the frog.
You know, from that story where the princess kissed a frog and it turned into a prince.
Sorry about that, I was just letting my mind spin.
But a nice sentence to complete a task that makes you so happy, before doing anything else, could be : ‘The sparkle of a princess crown’.
Yes, I know I just made that up, but it sounds nice.
Don’t you think?
I think yes.
I am going to use this now more often.
Because we all can use a little laughter and foolishness that makes us smile.
Nice we are agreeing on this.
In my imagination I am now shaking your hand.
Thank you for being on this journey with me.
I hope you are as nice as I think you are.
But until that moment comes I still have a story to tell.
About the flashes I was seeing before my eyes, when I was standing in line ordering my coffee.
I think a princess also needs to wait sometimes for her turn.
I guess.
But the reality is that I have nobody in my life at the moment.
And that is actually a bit sad.
The struggle to find someone is out there and something I am experiencing.
It is even a question when I talk about my love stories.
Or when I let people know I am writing.
‘Do you have someone in your life?’
Is what I was asked.
With a little pause after that question.
‘No’, is the answer I have to say.
‘I just didn’t had the time, yet’. Is how I always end that conversation.
And that is not a lie.
But at the same time I am feeling that that time is coming, for me to have someone in my life.
A reason that I am having these flashes before my eyes.
At least something I am telling myself.
To give it purpose for me to explore further.
Something I like doing and is making me feel good.
Answers for me to understand where I need to find this partner, or what he is like.
Because I am not a lesbian and I like guys.
You can also say I am hetrosexual.
I honestly can’t wait for that moment to come, that I am going to meet him.
But let me first finish this story, so I know a bit more of where to look.
It could be that he is Danish, since I am sitting in Copenhagen Coffee Lab.
It isn’t just that, but I wanted to go to Hygge Cafe at first.
That could be for me a confirmation, but yeah, it could also be just a good guess.
Anyway.
What I know from Danish culture is that they are stylish and healthy.
A bit reserved even perhaps.
There isn’t much more coming up.
I have only been to Denmark a couple of times.
I also know that Danish people have certain family traditions. I think that is connected with ‘that’ Hygge. Something that is hard to grasp or to understand.
Perhaps something you could only feel when you are part of that crowd.
It could be, I don’t know.
I am just here writing a story and letting the words write itself.
Honestly, I don’t know if this is anything related to the person I am going to be with.
Or just for you to read my story.
Who knows.
Maybe.
So let’s see what will come up next.
My eyes feel a bit more rested and my mind is relaxed.
It can be intense to see those flashes.
I am getting a bit hungry and my salmon sandwich is untouched.
I also still have a little bit left from my blueberry smoothie.
So let me drink it up.
For you to know, I finished my coffee first.
I drink a flat white, in case you wonder.
But before I end this story, I want to thank you for joining me today.
I am happy to know you are there.
See you next time!