I was watching ‘The Crown’.
There were new episodes and it was being promoted on social media for people to watch.
I am not going to name the broadcaster of that show, as I think we all know who that is.
I had ended or paused my account for some time.
I wasn’t watching anything at that moment and to me the options there were then, were too limited.
A cut in my expenses.
Not necessary, but just that it wasn’t worth paying for.
For the simple fact, I wasn’t watching anything.
Why pay for something I am not using?
However with the promotion of the new series, I believe something was triggering in me.
Not a trauma, but something I felt inside.
That I needed to watch.
In other words, something for the sake of me, instead for the sake of them.
The broadcaster of that show.
It was particularly that show that wanted to say something.
Or just something deeper in me that was lingering.
Perhaps just both.
It could be.
I renewed my account and within a couple of minutes I was good to go.
I was watching for a few minutes, where I was amazed already.
It was incredible for me to understand that I was watching people that had already died.
Diana, Prince Phillip and of course the Queen herself.
I thought it was hard for me to start writing about it, since the rule is to not speak ill about dead people.
But the legacy was there, in a time when they were still alive.
It made it easier to just start filtering my opinion.
Even if it was just for myself.
Something I learned, the Queen, was never able to do.
At least not in public.
And perhaps something she was never really allowed to do also.
By the rules of the heritage of the family and of course the Crown itself.
Not a blame, nor something negative.
Just my view and a form of compassion to the Queen and Buckingham Palace.
And since I am not a queen, without a family history that needs to be seen, I am able to speak freely.
But of course it doesn’t mean I am going to spread negativity about anything that happened.
As far as that, I think people can form their own opinion about it.
But I also believe that it is not what the world needs.
Especially not in times of war, economic depression and other things that are happening I am not aware of.
An acknowledgement that I am bound to my own vision and limited in the information that I have or that is coming to me.
But then again, I am no queen and that is not particularly necessary for me to have.
To say, I know my place.
Not going over boundaries that aren’t mine.
Not ventilating my opinion for the sake of just.
I don’t know what to say there.
And I believe that is what it is about.
The importance of myself, only goes to the limit I have for myself.
That is the only information I need.
But why am I saying all this?
Better to say, why do I need to bring up the Queen, Lady Di and even Prince Phillip to the table?
They all died already for some time and I have no ties with them.
I have never met them, never seen them in real life.
And I was only able to ‘meet’ them through the things I have heard when I was younger and now by this show that I felt I needed to watch.
The answer is : I can’t really say.
And sometimes it is just like that.
I believe we are all limited in our ways.
I think this is also something that is shown in ‘the Crown’.
Phillip by the Queen, The Queen by the Crown (perhaps even the family history) and Diana by Buckingham Palace.
And before I forget to mention, Mrs Thatcher who I believe was mainly limited by her own thoughts and beliefs.
It was incredible for me to watch from the point of view of a feminine that she chose her favorite twin over the fact that he was stronger, due to the physicality and biology of him being a boy.
That her daughter was carrying something of Mrs. Tatcher’s mother.
Which in my ears sounded like she couldn’t give her daughter what she was asking for, because of being a woman.
Or something she said in those lines.
I don’t know if she really meant that being a woman is a limitation, because they are weaker.
Or at least her mother was.
This is just something she said, but just a little bit different.
And I felt sad to see it.
But of course I am not speaking ill about her.
I believe we are just all limited by circumstances we are not always in control of.
And Mrs. Thatcher is also the product of that.
This makes logic the way she acted and handled these situations.
Let me put it like that.
Being again compassionate to her and the things she has experienced.
As for her political appearance.
I have always learned she did something that was heroic by her act of going against the grain.
At least this is how I got to know her.
Something I learned, studying politics.
Her appearance was appreciated beyond measure.
Not only for being a woman in a mens’ world, but also the time she was living in.
However, by that act towards her own blood and daughter, it showed she never used her feminine power.
She was a product of a lack.
Needed to survive and work hard, mainly going beyond herself.
To say she became tough, perhaps even to receive some accomplishments from her father.
In the show ‘Thw Crown’, it is not explained why that was so important.
But I guess we all want that.
The approval of our parents, because it is something that makes us feel good about ourselves.
A fuel to keep on going and to know we are safe, perhaps even alive.
As for Mrs. Tatcher, she already died and although I believe the framing of her in the show is different from how I learned.
Perhaps even how it really was.
And I can’t really ask her personally, since she isn’t here anymore.
However I found this perspective refreshing to see.
Just for the sake of myself.
Because I believe as a woman we don’t have to do that, what she did.
What it is, you can fill in for yourself.
To me, it was going so far that we lose track of what is really important.
In her case that was giving the love her daughter was asking for.
And again, from the place she came from, it was to me all understandable.
Perhaps that is also a resemblance all parties wanted to have.
The Queen, Prince Philip and Diana.
A tap on the shoulder, being accepted for who they were.
And although Mrs Thatcher’s daughter had a very very minor role in that show.
I believe it was heroic of the daughter to confront her mother.
Because to me a real leader doesn’t only know the place in the world or knows where she comes from.
But gives what is needed when people go beyond themselves to ask what is needed for them to stay alive.
And I believe I am going to leave it just here.
To come back to what I believe this story is about, that limitations can form a block we can’t seem to go further.
That is actually nothing knew and a lot is known about it.
However I believe from a point of love, I don’t think that limitations are that important.
Limitation are just a sign, or a signal where we can make a turn and direct it in our own way.
To see it for what it is.
To say we have to find a new ground, where the limitations are not preventing us from that what we want and need.
Even if we don’t know what that is.
But here a few examples.
A tap on the shoulder, a kiss on the cheek.
A hug where we can feel it is real or the words that goes to our heart and soul where that it is meant to be.
I believe it is a short cut to bring us further.
As a society.
Instead of working towards the limitation(s) or facing them when they are there, coming to the surface.
It will save us time, where we put the energy in the positive.
Mainly we say : ‘ok, limitation I know you are there, and that is all ok’.
‘You can stay there as long as you want’.
‘But in the mean time I am going to have a little fun and see what else is there’.
It means we can choose a different direction, where we can grow and built on the positive things in life.
The best part is that the limitations will dissapear by itself, because they see that in this world, there isn’t much to do for them.
Not just a shortcut on that road of understanding, growing, becoming and finding what it is we desire.
But an opening for many people who perhaps not always able to go the depth or are in search for themselves.
Because how I see it, is that the world is a bit dark at the moment.
With all that is happening.
Even if I don’t know everything, but to me that is not a limitation, nor a turn around.
Just a way how it is.
And also this a way of making limitations go away.
By accepting we can’t always change what we feel inside.
What I try to say is that we need people to make it understood that there is a better world out there.
Even if they don’t know for themselves.
To me the roots of society are not the negative things that are driving us, but the love we see in ourselves and others.
Drinking a cup of coffee with a friend or just watching a movie in bed.
Sleepin’ in a bit too long.
Just some examples and also as a matter of fact.
And if you don’t understand what I am saying, you can always cry about it.