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The test of love

Posted on 01/12/202408/12/2024 by Lakshmi

Because honestly, I don’t think it is a test of love as such.

To me the test of love is to overcome some hurdles in ourselves to know if we are ready for that kind of love commitment.

It is a journey inward.

Let me say it like this, whenever there is a test coming, it is to know we are already there.

Just that we need this test to lock it in our mind, perhaps the heart of anything else that needs that kind of confirmation. That is what a test of love to me is about.

Perhaps just a confirmation of love.

A test is not a burden nor something we have to face, but just to know where we are at that moment in time. To see where we are going and what needs to be done.

There is no failure, perhaps not even a success, since that is not the objective.

It is just to see where you are.
And that can be anything.

A place in ourselves, or one that we understand.
A feeling or thoughts, perhaps something real.
It could all be.

The only thing that remains is what is important for us to know at that moment of the test.

Love is emotional

Posted on 14/11/202414/11/2024 by Lakshmi

It is a sense of belief I had.

I don’t think you can really call it an epiphany.

That a community can bring so much more than we think about.
Not just the security and safety as a base to start from.

But it can give those experiences that are good for the heart and soul.

Partying as an example. Drinking till early in the morning.
Being shit faced and still showing up for that sunday breakfast.
While we try to keep our eyes open and everyone around knows exactly where we have been and not even feeling sorry for us. Perhaps even laughing a little bit, not just behind our back, also not laughing in our face.
Enough to feel just that, where we will remember till this day.

It could be the only way to go, to grow up and become.
Or finding the one we love.

It is where we are doing things that are on the edge, perhaps even we know we shouldn’t do.
Or at least when we think about it later, telling ourselves that it was a bit tricky, yes.

However there is no regret, just a smile on the face to capture that moment that somehow still is there.
Making us feel alive from the inside.

Do we need to look for love on earth?

Posted on 23/05/202423/05/2024 by Lakshmi

To conclude we already know that there are people on earth not looking for love.

A realization when I was writing this story.

It made me think if there is actually someone on earth that does?

Love doesn’t matters if you are who you are

Posted on 05/08/202305/08/2023 by Lakshmi

I don’t know if it is that I am getting comfortable with my age, however it is something that I am not identifying with.

Age, numbers, how it is we should behave.
I don’t know if this makes me look younger than I am.
I do have to say that I am young at heart, the same as my mind.

But it is the outside that counts, what it is that people perceive.
As that is the world that I have come to know. To be judged on the outside, so to speak.

Age has come to be in that box, of how we should be.

A system where love can flourish

Posted on 21/06/202305/09/2023 by Lakshmi

There is a story I wrote, where I questioned if my father loved my mother.

Of course this doesn’t come out of nowhere, but it has been something I have been thinking about lately.

Perhaps because it was father’s day.

I was thinking about this boy that I have been meeting.
Where I didn’t feel even a single feeling.

As long as you smile and not make big mistakes, all will be fine

Posted on 13/06/202305/09/2023 by Lakshmi

It isn’t that I am looking for anything.
Speaking of love or dating.

I am just working and focussed on what I am supposed to be doing.
And I have to admit, sometimes I have no clue what that is.

But when it comes to love, things happen without that we even know it.

Not that I am aware of it, but perhaps because I am just focussed on myself, I somehow notice it.

It was when I was working in the restaurant.

Is it worth to be a wingwoman?

Posted on 16/05/202307/09/2024 by Lakshmi

It must have been a long time since I went out.

However when I think about it, that is not completely true.

It was maybe a long time ago since I had this similar feeling, that I had, when going out like the way I did.

But at the moment I was having this epiphany, perhaps even the experience, it didn’t feel like it was that long ago, however it wasn’t yesterday also.