The Love Journey of Lakshmi
I thought it was about a guy that I shared the bed with and left me in tears.
Something along those lines.
However, that never happened to me.
Perhaps even for good reasons.
But I guess it would be just an example of a love experience that we know.
Where I’d like to find out if there are other forms of love experiences out there.
Taking away that fear and making me want to go further.
Believing in the positivity that is out there and finding what I need to.
Where I am longing for more.
However, the side note I want to make.
The older we get, the more experienced we are getting.
The more experiences we are having.
The good and ugly ones.
The ones we like to forget and perhaps hold some shame around.
But the truth is, with experience comes a package.
Something we can call age even.
Perhaps that is the reason why.
Why we are not able to find love at an older age.
Where I make the decision if that dating app is a ground to find that someone that is good for my heart.
I guess another boundaries I am putting.
Where I have the experience that I remain believing in love.
And if it isn’t that, a commitment where I can keep believing in myself.
I don’t know if it was the change of the weather, as it was raining a lot for a few days.
I was feeling somewhat depressed.
Perhaps it was this weather reflecting my mood.
Or just my own senses that were going underneath the surface to keep me dry from the rain.
The last 6 months there have been many changes and my birthday is coming up in a few months.
I will be 39.
Another year on the horizon and also time to close some chapters.
Perhaps I am just tired from all the things I have been experiencing.
Not able to pause and unwind.
Although I know it was for my own good, to grow and become.
The tiredness was a way my body made me notice, to keep me on track.
To prepare for something I am feeling intuitively.
‘I have friends that have Tinder babies’. The lady told me.
I was watching the blond hair of the woman that was laying in front of me.
Her face was down. I was gently massaging her neck.