The Love Journey of Lakshmi
It must have been a long time since I went out.
However when I think about it, that is not completely true.
It was maybe a long time ago since I had this similar feeling, that I had, when going out like the way I did.
But at the moment I was having this epiphany, perhaps even the experience, it didn’t feel like it was that long ago, however it wasn’t yesterday also.
It is perhaps the month or the astrology of what is behind it.
But I want to talk about something that is called the feminine rage.
With a simple google search, the following is what is coming to the surface.
‘Feminine rage is the physiological, ancestral, naked and embodied response to things gone wrong in the world. This tradition, like every other, is patriarchal. It was articulated, written, and transmitted for the benefit of men. That often leaves women in the dust’.
When it comes to men, I think the guys that fall for me are quite simple.
And the question is of course, is there any attraction the other way around.
Not to put any blame, just not discarding here my own responsibility.
Opposites attract perhaps?
What else could it really be?
I was thinking about marriage and what that really means.
I have met some people, that carry on their finger a ring.
As I have thought about the foundation of love.
Just one of my stories.
I was thinking what can happen when it comes to marriage.
Better to say of how it happens to get married in the first place.
So many ways of reaching that destination, perhaps even a goal of life for some.
I heard they were having a fight.
It wasn’t a particular fight.
And it wasn’t that I overheard anything.
But somehow I had heard that there was a fight and my name was mentioned in that fight.
I believe that I might even have been the cause of this fight.
I was surprised. Surely.
Why would you have a fight over me?
‘To be with a woman is very soft’. Everything is soft. The kissing, the hands, the caressing’.
‘But at the end of the day, I just want dick’. I need to be fucked.’ My friend told me.
I went on a date the next a few days later.
‘So when I am talking with another girl, would you try to get her out?’ He asked me.
‘When I am around women I become ‘the man’’. Is what my friend told me.
We occasionally also work together.
I don’t know what made us connect. But we just did.
I was listening to her words, while my feet were touching the grass.
It was a nice day.
Hormones can be a block for your lovelife.
Both artificial and natural.
Lately my hormones are taking matters into their own hands. Not that I want them to take a walk with me. But I am trying to escape them. I can’t help it. I am a sagittarius. The world is sometimes too scary for me. And then especially things I don’t know.
But I have come to know that the unknown is quite ok.
Quite a contradiction.
I was walking in the park. Not by myself. Not that it’s a big mystery. I just wasn’t by myself.
I walk alone or by myself a lot. Something I accepted, as some things I need to do by myself. Where nobody is invited. A process. Thoughts. Feelings. Experiences. Things we need to know first, before to understand and to share. If at all.
But this time it wasn’t a day like that.