Although I might not know who I am.
I know I am Lakshmi.
Tag: energy
The box of love
I don’t know if it was the change of the weather, as it was raining a lot for a few days.
I was feeling somewhat depressed.
Perhaps it was this weather reflecting my mood.
Or just my own senses that were going underneath the surface to keep me dry from the rain.
The last 6 months there have been many changes and my birthday is coming up in a few months.
I will be 39.
Another year on the horizon and also time to close some chapters.
Perhaps I am just tired from all the things I have been experiencing.
Not able to pause and unwind.
Although I know it was for my own good, to grow and become.
The tiredness was a way my body made me notice, to keep me on track.
To prepare for something I am feeling intuitively.
A story of my love life
Lately there are a lot of men talking to me.
Conversations I am having, mainly because they want to say something.
I can’t really say that I am listening, but I am trying my best.
To at least be there.
Of course I am.
Most of the time.
Not to insinuate something different.
Just that I am not always there with my mind, because sometimes it is hard to follow what they are saying.
To have a love that I can call mine
I told myself that I am letting go of what I am.
Perhaps just for this story, to understand better, what it is I am meaning.
Or that I need a little bit more healing.
It is my mind that has been going back to a couple of years ago.
Where I was in a relationship but didn’t have the strength to let go of that person.
Distance makes an energy match
Distance creates attraction, is something I was thinking for some time.
It was that I took my distance for a while.
Mainly from people.
It wasn’t something that I was doing on purpose, but it just happened to be like that.
I went back to the Netherlands, leaving behind Lisbon how I knew it, due to circumstances.
I believe it was a process that happened automatically.
It was that I was in the Netherlands, seeing people literally from a distance.
The space between where I was in the past and the difference with the present was giving me time to have a look.
Loading up for a love that is mine
I believe it was a few months ago that I had no interest in looking at men.
Not that I was interested in women or wanting to explore that side.
It was just that I wasn’t looking at all.
It felt I needed to be in that place to see things in introspect and investigate something deeper to understand myself better.
I knew it had a purpose.
More about this in my story : ‘As long as you smile and not make big mistakes, all will be fine’.
That said, I believe I am coming out of a shell.
How to attract a partner using the law of attraction
Although the information I am receiving is about someone I know.
The truth is that we are not together and I have to understand what I need to be doing, to be involved in the right way.
It is not that I am desperate or am trying to get involved, only because I have been receiving this kind of information.
In that sense, I am disconnecting from this and would like to understand what it is that I need in a relationship.
Apart from knowing it is him.
A sign of being single
We were sitting on the terrace.
The sun was coming through between the buildings.
I could feel it touching my face.
There was a man with his dog.
Talking to some other guy.
I overheard one of them speaking about some things.
They were both drinking some beers.
A Love so real
Sometimes we need to be alone.
Just a walk of life.
For our own specific reasons.
Lately I am alone a lot.
There is just nobody. Really.
This is not some sad love story.
However, my heart has been broken.
I have cried many tears.