adoption - The Love Journey of Lakshmi

Is a love relationship to be with someone to feel good about ourselves?

Posted on 21/10/202424/10/2024 by Lakshmi

Could it be that people are in relationships with each other, because one is less than the other and people are feeling better about themselves for this reason?

It sounds so stupid to write it down like this, but I guess it is a truth that is out there.
One I am getting aware about right now.

It is a form of dependence in my eyes, this kind of relationship.
One depending on the other and the other feeling good about themselves.
When I was thinking about this a bit more deeper, it could even be that these kinds of people are taking a form of identity from that.

Toxic, it is.

The only word that is popping up for me is to write it down like it.

I just have no other way to express and tell.
I hope one day I can make this sound better than it does at the moment.

Then I came to that point during my little break, where I was understanding why I was still single.

Perhaps I can call it a form of self love

Posted on 19/05/202423/05/2024 by Lakshmi

All I want to express is what happened to me and that these conditions I had to live in are not a form of love.

A thought of love

Posted on 11/05/202416/01/2025 by Lakshmi

She lives on in me and so will I.

Because I love myself

Posted on 29/10/202316/01/2025 by Lakshmi

Many things are going on.

Mainly in myself.

Big things that are happening.

And I am starting to understand it is getting time.

Finally not running out of it anymore.
Just saying this to myself.

It was that when I was in that place where I was feeling that I wasn’t fitting in.
Watching my surroundings.

Something I was writing in my story ‘the box of love’.

A start of finding that place I belong.

Could there be a system where love could live?

Posted on 25/08/202301/09/2023 by Lakshmi

It was something that kept my mind occupied.

And that I couldn’t find the words on how to say or even express it.

So, this is what I normally do whenever something like this happens.

I just sit and let the words speak by themselves. Letting my fingers be the extension of what it is that wants to be said on paper.
That is the space the words would come out right.

But the most important thing for me to do, is not just to sit but find the time that there is nothing else.

No need to finish. No boundary of time.
Just me sitting in a space filled with only that.

But before all that, I need to start to find a lover first

Posted on 16/06/202305/09/2023 by Lakshmi

‘How old are you?’

A question that is rising more often.

Soon after I say my age, the question is sometimes: ‘Do you still want children?’

Not so much in a sense of dating, but it is the way Dutch people are speaking.

It was one time when I was working in the restaurant that I said ‘I am 38’.
I think the customer was overwhelmed by that number and said : ‘You need to hurry before getting children’.