It is that I am in a low when it is comes to dating.
I am not seeing anyone. I don’t think of any guy(s).
Even when I see a guy that looks good, it doesn’t make my mind spin.
My fantasy is not taking a leap with me.
Not that I am a saint, but more that I am too busy with other things.
Making plans, understand what I am doing.
Trying to think ahead and somewhere in between sleeping.
And even if I feel that my eyes are looking a bit too close, because there is a gentleman passing, it is my head that turns and brings back the focus of what I am supposed to be doing.
However it was something that I was thinking that made me starting thinking a bit different.
When it comes to be in a low of dating. If you can speak of something like that.
Although it is that I am not seeing someone physically. Or perhaps even trying to see someone in general.
It doesn’t mean that love is not around me.
I believe it is outdated or perhaps something we have come to believe that we need to be really seeing someone to call it dating.
To call it that we are in this ‘love energy’.
But I think that sometimes we need to have this intermezzo of ‘not dating’, of ‘not being with someone’, or how you would like to call it.
A neccesarry need to do the work which is necessary for a next love that is waiting.
I would like to call it a bridge or even a road of love.
Which to me doesn’t always mean you need to be with someone, but that the energy of love is still surrounding us.
Although being in a low, it doesn’t mean to be in a low as such.
Love has so many different angles.
It doens’t mean we are out of love, or that love doesn’t exist in that moment.
It is just a time to find out.
Perhaps to heal, perhaps to go after what it is we need.
To learn and teach.
Break down our walls or built up from scratch.
Understanding our boundaries.
These are just some examples.
Different forms of love.
Outside of the ‘traditionial way of how we think love is’.
I believe there are so many aspects to it, when it comes to this.
I was amazed by the fact that I could feel this love vibe surrounding me, eventhough I am not dating, not thinking of anyone in particular and not even have my mind to dating in general.
I am building resistant.
Finding answers that are giving me insights how I am handling myself.
What happened, is that I received a phone call.
There wasn’t much said.
It wasn’t even important.
In a world of dating as we know, it wouldn’t even be noticed it as such.
But it wasn’t about what was said, but more the actions that were taken.
A dance in the dark, between me and that other person.
I believe he was asking me a question about my schedule and he also asked me another question.
It was all very random.
When you think of it. It is all quite normal.
You can even call it innocent.
But when it comes to love everything is important.
Because love is interaction.
At least to me it is.
It is a meeting in time and space, not always bound to the physical.
Which means that this phone call was quite important for my love life.
Although it had nothing to do with dating.
It was a test to see, where I am.
In my own story.
If I am the main character or just an actor.
A guard standing or perhaps an emotional king.
Because when it comes to love it doesn’t have a form.
It is the action that are taken that make this concrete and we can identify who we are in that moment.
To settle and ground.
As our own.
But of course all can change.
As love is not grasped in time and space.
Not to be measured or bound to how we feel or what the mind thinks.
Because love starts before all that.
Love is the beginning of everything.