I was watching ‘The Crown’.
There were new episodes and it was being promoted on social media for people to watch.
I am not going to name the broadcaster of that show, as I think we all know who that is.
I had ended or paused my account for some time.
I wasn’t watching anything at that moment and to me the options there were then, were too limited.
A cut in my expenses.
Not necessary, but just that it wasn’t worth paying for.
For the simple fact, I wasn’t watching anything.
Why pay for something I am not using?
It is becoming more apparent that people really have no clue what they are talking about.
At least when it comes to love.
Let me say it like this.
And it really has nothing to do with age.
As a matter of fact.
Because I hear them old ladies and youngster say exactly the same thing.
There is also no difference when it comes to race or sexe.
Boys struggle with the same issues as girls.
And when it comes to love, it doesn’t matter what you look like.
I was going through my stories and was reading :
‘What is the meaning of being Single?’
To me it is a moment where you are complete.
Satisfied with your own being.
Not considered with outside influences.
Not going beyond your feelings, perhaps even thoughts.
However, even if it isn’t like that.
It doesn’t matter.
Then there is still something to be learning.
It is that I returned to Lisbon and had talks about dating.
I was wondering if boys think the same as girls.
If they think further when they meet someone.
I am not speaking about what they think about getting married, or fantasizing about their outfit at the altar.
But perhaps it is more innocent, or less far fetched.
I don’t know how to explain otherwise, for the simple fact that I am just asking this.
If boys also do that.
I am somewhere in between.
I don’t know if you can call it being stuck.
Perhaps preparing for something that is coming.
At least it feels like it is near to me.
It is that I saw a lot of content about an American couple.
I thought at first it was about the reaction of the guy.
Because I only saw what he was saying, when the girl was sometimes ‘pushing his buttons’.
There is a phase I am going through at the moment.
I call it getting older.
My birthday is in a month and rapid movements are happening.
Mainly in my mind and emotions.
Also parts of my body that are finding relief.
I am sweating so much, feeling tired for no reason.
Want to sleep all day or I forget where I left my umbrella.
Of all things.
I can’t really call this person a celebrity.
However he has a lot of followers on Social Media.
A journey he started, according to himself.
Just telling here his own words.
‘That intense journey started when I posted a lot about my life’.
I don’t really know how it went further.
He didn’t really say so much about it.
But it weren’t these words that made me notice him.
It was a post that he got married.
Many things are going on.
Mainly in myself.
Big things that are happening.
And I am starting to understand it is getting time.
Finally not running out of it anymore.
Just saying this to myself.
It was that when I was in that place where I was feeling that I wasn’t fitting in.
Watching my surroundings.
Something I was writing in my story ‘the box of love’.
A start of finding that place I belong.
I had a meeting with a psychologist.
But it wasn’t that I just reached out to one.
As I am watching content all day to make sure one of the online platforms stays safe.
We also see things that are not always nice.
Many of my stories are starting with that I don’t know how it happened.
And that is the truth.
No doubt about it.
Just a remembrance of that this is how things sometimes start.
Not to say in real life.
Just in particular some of my stories.
And this is also what happened this time.