It was just a feeling I felt.
Perhaps even that stuck on me for this long.
A disappointment that we can have that kind of relationship.
Entertain it while it lasts and then when looking back feeling this disappointment.
I mean, we can have a relationship and end it for the reasons why.
They can be good or not.
We can hesitate before breaking up, even second guessing if we should do it all.
At least something I did, when having these relationships where I was feeling this disappointment long after.
I am talking about years and years.
Which I hope explains how deep this feeling must have been.
I mean we can come together, entertain what happens and have those love experiences, to make it worthwhile for ourselves.
All those feelings are real and we can find our answers that bring us further.
That we understand we are relationship material.
Whatever that truly means.
What I want to say is that these relationships I have had weren’t matching how I am, as a person.
And so I was feeling disappointed about those kinds of relationships.
Was it a relationship in the first place? Is something that is coming up now.
Or just something I believed it was?
To give it a frame?
Because we can do those things that are part of what we believe is a relationship.
However, does that make it a relationship?