I am asking if the use of Tinder is the right decision for getting a relationship.
It is a source or better to say a platform to get together with someone.
If that is love, remains a question for me.
My experience has not always been nice.
I did get involved with people and perhaps you can even call it I have been intimate.
Guys in specific.
Girls I don’t like, not the way you think at least.
This is where I rest my case, when it comes to girls.
When it comes to guys, there is so much more for me to find out.
Perhaps even a part of myself I need to discover, while being with them.
I have come across some of them on those apps.
I mean, Tinder was just one.
It had the most popularity, one most easy to use.
I can’t really tell if Tinder filled a gap or it was something needed.
People were meeting each other and I believe there is already a new generation coming, from those Tinder meetings.
They are called Tinder babies.
For some reason it sounds odd.
Apart from those stories, about people who were seemingly happy and even married each other.
It opened up my curiosity, where I wanted to see what there was for me.
A clear hesitation, perhaps a natural boundary.
To create a frame for me to not get lost.
Let me say it was worth trying, to see and explore.
Heartbreaks I have suffered, because of people I have met there.
A road I have been on, to heal and understand.
I believe those experiences from Tinder have created some holes in my heart.
It took some time for me to mend and recover.
Looking back now, I questioned myself.
Started to hesitate about the decisions I made and even thought I was going insane at some point.
It came from the people I met through the app.
I believe a byproduct from those apps.
I am not just talking about Tinder in specific.
Just an overall conclusion what I have found.
I did go on other dating platforms as well.
I mean, great there is a tool for meeting people.
I believe it was more out of luck than a conscious decision to create an app for people to get together.
To say, how am I going to solve this?
For myself.
I mean, it isn’t really my problem.
However it became one, once I used those apps.
Fears I felt, even sadness and also of course the heartbreaks.
Only because I was looking for love.
I know it sounds very horrible.
Almost like I didn’t find anything good.
The only thing I have found there, were pieces of myself.
How I felt, what I wanted in life.
Softly I can say what I found on Tinder is not what I want.
When it comes to love?
Not really, I have to say.
A conclusion, to end that kind of chapter of my life.
Mission accomplished, I guess.
I believe using a dating app should never cause mental or emotional harm, also not as a byproduct.
Which led me to this point, where I am asking myself if it is worth trying again.
Using these dating apps looking for this relationship I am trying to find.
It is a platform where people are meeting each other.
I am happy for those who found each other and are feeling good.
The thing is, not one of those I have heard speaking, had a story where I was thinking : ‘I also want’.
It didn’t really feel something was for me, but I am happy I went there.
Where these negative byproducts from using the app, mean something isn’t right.
Perhaps it could be me, I am just investigating the possibilities here.
I believe excluding the app as a source, perhaps a ground to start something special, brings the responsibility back to me.
Where I can choose and have an overview of what can happen.
I am just removing something I have no control over.
Which to me sounds healthy.
Although I had to suffer or just suffered in general.
I guess, it is part of life.
According to google the definition of suffering is to feel mental or physical pain.
Something I found going on those apps.
It made me human, I guess
Using a dating app to find myself.
That sounds like a better story, perhaps even one full of love.
I am proud of myself for what I did.
The bad taste in my mouth I had is leaving.
Now I can finally say something different.
I mean, the chances are he is on this app.
It isn’t rocket science, to understand he is.
I believe a lot of people just are.
There isn’t any specific reason, it is just available.
To me this kind of availibility is not enough to build a relationship from.
It means I am the director of my life.
The start of a relationship is as important as the end.
All things experienced, either apart or together, you have come to that kind of point where I can say :
‘I am together with you’.
It would be the conclusion and the start of us being together.
Where nobody can come in between.
A built up of a relationship becoming strong.
Something important for me, don’t ask me why.
For the simple fact, I just don’t know.
Leaving things up to chance, if it might happen.
To me it sounds just too insecure.
Dating apps are not providing a plan where you can feel and follow.
According to me it shouldn’t be a jungle, where you need to find out.
Something which is too heavy for the mind, at least something I think.
It can come to the point where people need to take responsibility for their actions, while actually it wasn’t their fault.
Wow, can you imagine that?
To me dating apps are just unstable in their essence.
When it comes to love, I believe it is a path already laid out.
To understand the other person and get to know each other on a deeper level.
Something I welcome.
I would want this, to be honest.
So how to go further from this point?
I am going to skip using dating apps as a source for finding my partner.
I know he is out there.
To me it is more important we are meeting each other at a place where it is safe and secure.
To have a love that is happy and healthy.