I finished watching the movie.
The movie that I was talking about in my previous story and I wrote a story about : ‘A match made on Earth’.
It was still one hour that I needed to watch and I have to say it didn’t disappoint me one single bit.
In the second part that I was watching this movie, it was confirmed that the souls were applying for a place on Earth.
As for some the message was that they needed to have some additional factor to be able to perform this job. It was for others to be in control of their emotions, to not get caught up by their feelings or to take the interview process seriously.
There was also one girl that I was despising from the beginning.
I couldn’t really put my finger on it.
For a second I even thought that I was jealous of her.
I started looking closer.
Was it the hair, perhaps her dress or that she was part of this movie?
Really, I couldn’t tell.
But this feeling didn’t leave me the whole movie.
It was the way she was answering the interviewers’ questions.
Like she wasn’t there and wanted to get the answers from the interviewer.
He asked questions like : What would you do if you were in this situation or what would you do if this happened?
Many of her answers were ‘I don’t know’ or ‘you tell me, you have been there’.
The thing she said to the interviewer.
It was crawling my toes and somewhere making me furious.
But it felt to me, this was edged, since she was not on earth and had no recollection of how things are working here.
In this matter it made sense to me she would answer the questions like that.
It all changed for me at the very end, where she wrote a letter to the interviewer and her last sentence was to not take things for granted.
It wasn’t the words that caught me, nor was it the way it was written, but more that she finally reached that point to make it to be on planet Earth.
What that is, you need to see for yourself.
Actually, the movie doesn’t show if she is making it to Earth, but to me, it made sense.
That she finally showed that she was already there.
Perhaps this is why she didn’t need a ticket.
The letter was her way in.
But with writing that letter she wrote, it showed the start of a search for a death that wasn’t meant to be.
But it gave her the life that she wanted.
Because initially she was eliminated from the process to come to earth.
And I had to think about the stories that I have been writing for some time now.
I started writing in may 2022.
It is not that I identify with this character of the movie, but see a resemblance of the letter that she wrote in my own stories.
Because although I am not applying for a position to come to Earth, for some reason I took this personal and I see the stories as a ticket that can take me to a different location, perhaps even a different destination.
Although this destination is still unknown. The same as for these souls who are applying for a place on Earth.
However I think it might be a place I do know, just by name, since I haven’t been there in the form I am at the moment.
I believe the stories are my ticket and way into New York.
To base myself and start living the life that is meant for me.
Not just because I am writing about love, but because I am something that the city needs.
Don’t ask me what that is, because honestly I don’t know.
That is what the city knows and is a relationship that is building.
Since I have been to New York a couple of times, as a tourist.
The last time I was there was about 8 years ago.
I believe I have evolved and am a different person than I once was.
It could be that I am still single and I need to find a lover there.
Since this is my love journey.
It means I need the city.
And for some reason I have to think about the boathouse a lot in Central Park.
I don’t know if this is because I was writing about the boat that you can find me in, in the story I wrote : ‘Love is Love, no matter what age’.
Perhaps I need to be in the city of New York to get married?
Because that is what is happening at the boathouse.
It is a question that I am asking, to anyone that is watching me and reading this story.
And although there is nothing you can really do up there, it makes me feel alive that at least someone is watching.
I am feeling less afraid and scared.
That is something that is always welcome.
Some other thing that I think of is that I will go to New York and with this story I am applying for a place there.
I don’t want to compare my stories to the stories written by the fictional character Carry Bradshaw.
Of course she was also writing about love and the adventures that she had.
The difference is that my stories are about thoughts, feelings and real encounters.
Although I understand that her stories about her are something that is relatable to many people.
But it remains fictional.
We all know the stories never happened. And some are even far fetched.
Perhaps it is all something that we want to believe in.
I’d rather believe in myself.
This is where I differentiate myself from her and the stories about this city, to release a blockage and own up my place there.
But it is not just about that.
For me New York is a place to call home for creative people.
To be free in their own world, without constantly having to explain what they are doing.
This is the place where I am now and because I am here, I can tell that is taking a lot of my energy and is prohibiting me to further grow as myself and as a creative.
A blockage I can not undo myself, except to apply for another place where I can be just that.
Creative is something I identify with and with the knowledge that I have, I believe I can best do this in the city of New York.
It is just saying that I believe in myself.
Because the same as with this fictional character in the movie Nine days, where her destination was changed last minute.
The reason that she was allowed on Earth, but it wasn’t shown that she was going there.
It meant to me that because of the things she had said and done, she didn’t need the approval of the interviewer and she just had the choice to go.
And with writing this story, so do I.
I don’t only color outside the lines, I also create from scratch and with what I have.
It makes me abundant and unique, something what the world needs.
But why is it that the city of New York needs me?
I believe that is the last question I need to answer before taking that flight.
What I can say is that the world has come to know the city of New York as the city of dreams.
To make dreams come true.
To come with all you have and make it happen.
At least these are the stories from back in the days.
Since then a lot has changed.
It means I don’t live in the past or any fantasy.
Of course you still see people there that have built their life from nothing, people with talent that are able to flourish better in New York. A ticket provided by those able to see that potential.
But as the message of this story is, to not take things for granted and to take a look at different places.
It is to believe my destiny is a bit different.
The city of New York is a jungle for the rich and famous. For celebrities to reside where they can be safe. A hub for models and everyone else who thinks they matter.
But it is the last time that I was there, sitting over my coffee and eggs breakfast in one of the pop-up stores.
It is that I felt that the city has lost its roots and nobody knows anymore who is real.
I am not saying I am, nor saying I identify as such.
But the jungle that it has become, I believe it is time to go back to where it started.
Even if nobody knows where that is.
It isn’t that I am applying for such a position there, but more that I have proven to be able to go back and return to my own innocence. By starting over and leaving behind what doesn’t suit me.
With all this I have said, this is what the city New York needs.
To live a life that is healthy and happy.
To take away the injustice and fear that the city is also known for by an underworld that is hidden.
But only seen in the movies or documentaries.
An example of this is the Gangs of New York, with Leonardo di Caprio.
Not to forget, The Godfather trilogy, Goodfellas, Taxi Driver and Once Upon a Time in America.
Just to name a few.
It isn’t that I want to go to New York to show that I am the best, but I am the protector of humanity and a creative soul that can take the city back to how it should be.
I am saying specifically not how the city was. Because with that I am acknowledging that the city doesn’t exist.
But it can only go back to how it started, by acknowledging it exists in the first place.
This is creating space to build up from scratch and I will open the door for the unwanted souls that need to leave to send a message that the world is a safe place.
A place that shouldn’t be taken for granted.
And a place that I can call my home.