Many times I have deleted the account on the dating apps, many times I have returned.
Sometimes I am annoyed why I should be on a dating app, sometimes questioning if I should be there in the first place.
Sometimes asking why in god’s name I am always attracted to go back.
On my profile it says:
‘Just for meeting people, drinks, nice conversations’.
NL/ENG
The language notification I added later.
This guy started to talk to me, he had started talking to me in English.
As soon as I started to talk to him, very fast I let him know I could also speak Dutch.
I don’t know why I had said this to him, but soon after, I felt a bit uneasy to talk.
He didn’t made any remarks or assumptions about it, I just sort of felt it from the conversation.
He didn’t respond as fast as he had responding in the beginning.
I have always felt most guys are looking for this ‘adventurous’, ‘unreachable’, ‘native’.
Speaking English would add to that fantasy.
Speaking Dutch to these guys in the chat conversation, would bring them back to reality.
I would just be ‘just this Dutch girl’, not able to fulfill this fantasy.
‘Adventurous’, ‘Unreachable’, ‘Native’.
Almost an add.
This is what men want.
My head is just drifting a bit.
Does it matter what kind of language I speak when it comes to dating?
Should it matter?
Is this unreachable fantasy ‘we’ are living sustainable?
Or is it just what we have created to not face what we really want?