A moment in time I’d like to share.
I am enjoying every second of it, which makes me laugh and feel funny.
Happy is too much to say, however I am for sure glad I have reached this point in my life.
I never thought something like this could happen.
By saying this, there was actually not an expectation to start with.
Until I had that realization.
Watching myself in the mirror, taking quite some time to get myself ready for the day.
How I put on my lipstick, there is absolutely no hesitation.
The way I spray my perfume, where I can feel it blossom against my skin.
When I look closer, it is the way I am wearing my hair, making the selection of the shoes to put on.
It is all quite obvious.
I agree so much with myself, where there is no doubt about what is happening.
My skin is glowing, without giving it any attention.
For me to say, there is no place I’d rather be.
Then I wake up and see myself smiling, it has almost become default.
The way I feel is showing and I know it is this phase I am going through.
Where I am sharing it with you, I hope you like it, the same as I do.
Those two words, I hope to say one day.
Where I believe the start of this happened so much earlier.
The phase I am going through is a reminder to write it down in my little love journey.
Soft I get from the inside, for no specific reason.
If my heart could sing, I think it would.
I don’t care about the things I normally care about, do things regardless.
I am saying no, where before I would hesitate, perhaps even would agree.
At least to some extent.
I am purchasing without deliberating and it doesn’t bother me a single bit.
All the food tastes wonderful when I go home because I feel so.
There is no better way for me to say otherwise.
I guess this is just how it feels.
But I get it, we don’t live in a fairytale.
At least, I am living in the real world.
Where, I don’t really know where this is going.
And for once, I am not getting afraid.
That really says something.
However, I do know that every single letter, word and sentence I am typing is bringing me closer to that moment I am feeling.
It is the way I look at those men.
Sometimes serious, sometimes with a louder voice, to make sure I am on the go where I am supposed to be going.
Keeping them at distance or where I am standing a bit too close to see what I need to find.
Many thoughts are passing through my mind, when this happens.
‘This one is too young, that one is getting bold’.
I am not even blaming myself for being so superficial.
I know that judgement is beneficial in the process.
To find that partner suitable for me.
Where I feel I am being led by something inside of me.
A wave I am on. Up and down it goes.
Magical it is, to rely on something I can hardly express.
Although I think I am doing quite well, when it comes to that.