I can’t really call this person a celebrity.
He has a lot of followers on Social Media.
‘That intense journey started when I posted a lot about my life’.
I don’t really know how it went further.
He didn’t really say much about it.
It was a post he got married, which made me notice.
Frankly you could see on his feed, he wasn’t posting so much about his personal life.
Not a specific reason why, but more, well I can’t really tell.
Something he had decided to keep his life private, because it was involving others.
He said in that post of getting married, I believe we can all understand.
The picture of his wedding day was holding my attention still.
It made me think and consider my thoughts.
I could see he proposed on the first of January.
I have to say, I find it a bit ‘tacky’.
To me the first of January is really not the moment to propose.
Not even at dinner, with a ring in a cake, or at a mountain top reaching that destination.
I mean, I am probably tired from walking all the way.
Sweat all over my face, I just want to drink some water.
I would want to enjoy the view, seeing what was worth this trip.
I don’t think at the top of a mountain a proposal of a wedding is found.
At least something I believe.
You might think I have high standards.
I believe a proposal to a marriage should be a bit more considerated.
Than the first of January.
I am just ‘not that kind of girl’.
Distancing myself here.
Identifying with the person I am.
Of course it is nice this girl said yes.
They had a wedding with a lot of people.
They were dancing in the middle of the room.
Holding champagne glasses, laughing at each other.
An example of how these things can go.
While I was watching all this, at the same time I was having this feeling.
This wasn’t the kind of wedding I would want to have.
I mean we are free in the choices we make.
This is certainly something I am choosing.
While watching the content I was also happy to see them happy and wish them much more happiness.
I don’t know any of them, it is the only thing I can say.
What I wish for myself, I can’t really tell.
Not a lack of imagination of how I see things.
I believe it is just not my task to propose.
When that day comes I will say yes, then I will think a bit more about the details of the wedding.
But for now it is just too far, in a place I can not see.
Yet.
So I am leaving it here.
Up in the air.
There was something else I was thinking, about the road to that wedding day.
I mean, there is nothing bad I have to say about them.
They were smiling a lot and I was really happy for them.
It just made me question what steps he took to get there.
Apart of course from proposing.
Which in its essence is quite obvious.
I saw a video they went to a trip to her birth country.
He had surprised her going there, told her at the airport where they actually went to.
She cried many tears, she was so happy.
I don’t know if that is something I would have done.
I think I would have gotten mad, instead.
Don’t ask me why.
I am just not that kind of girl, I guess.
‘Why would you hide that?’
There is no fun in that, I think.
Not for me, at least.
No reason to say nothing, making me prepare for a destination I am not going to.
That sounds like you wasted my time.
‘Well, no thanks’.
Sorry for this dark mood, it isn’t intentional.
An expression I am making, how I am feeling about this content.
If there is a good reason you need to make up a story and make me believe we are going somewhere where we are not going, I would be ok with it.
It wouldn’t melt my brain and I could trust the decision.
Could trust its essence, it would be something I could live with.
I just don’t want to worry about things I shouldn’t.
When people follow their own road, instead of thinking about me or about the situation, it is messing with my head.
It makes me sick and I would lose trust in myself, not particular in that order.
To come back to this story and the content I was watching.
I believe you need to make certain steps in life.
Together as a couple and even on your own, for the road to marriage to appear.
Starting with the road of love, of course.
I believe it comes from getting to know each other, battling some fights, understanding what is the worth of the relationship for it to grow.
In other words, it needs to mark some points, where you can say : “Do you want to be mine?”
According to me, this is where you find solid ground to know what the end will be.
Where all I can say: “Yes, I do”.