There was a lot of music, heavy and loud.
I don’t know if you can call music heavy, but to me, it felt like it.
It wasn’t bothering me though.
A welcome intermezzo of the remembrance I was having.
That feeling I had a long time ago, going out with a friend.
I believe I was just standing, listening to the music and a moment later, I was looking for my friend.
After a few second I found her, not that far from where I was.
She was having a serious conversation with some boy.
It looked quite serious in my opinion.
I walked a bit closer to see what was happening.
I couldn’t really tell if it was an attempt to persuade each other, or where I needed to save one.
I kept my distance, to not interfere in anything that was supposed to happen.
I think they felt my appearance, they went to the bar to get a drink.
The difference with what happened years ago, I can’t really tell.
An awareness I am someone looking after my friend, making sure everything is going well.
It is up to debate for myself, if this is something worth doing.
Somehow it bothered me.
An annoyance to the person I was looking after.
I mean, we are all grown up and we shouldn’t just disappear from our company without telling.
The worst part is, I am standing there looking at some seducing attempt, which I can’t even say it is worth watching.
The following questions in my mind started raising :
‘Is this really what I want to see?’
‘What am I actually watching and is that actually worth my time?’
‘Would the change of my action prevent in any kind?’
Better to say : ‘Who really cares what happens, in the end?’
The change I should be making is to let people make their own choices and perhaps even mistakes.
Even when I am not interfering, by simply being there from a far, it is none of my business.
Nobody cares what happens.
‘Why should I be the one that does?’