‘What is the difference between a relationship and commitment?’
A question coming to mind.
I believe there is a certain difference between those two.
It could even be the difference between the relationship type and commitment type.
But I will not make it more difficult than it already is.
I was questioning myself if this is something I should write about.
Not because I should or shouldn’t, but more because of the depth of it.
Something unknown to me, perhaps for me to find.
Which is all there is.
Not an uncertainty, more making a bridge here for myself.
Something I feel is changing in me and that is quite scary.
The change of a decade when it comes to age and all what has to do with that.
A change of hormones, mindset, perhaps even dreams and desires.
Who knows, I don’t at least.
Just a place where I am going to.
An unknown territory I am finding and I feel scared.
To be involved and be in a relationship as such.
I mean, if you think about it, it is quite a lot.
Among many things, it is scary to me.
Mainly, because I’ve also been alone for a long time.
Where I am at the point, it has become a comfortability to me.
I guess we all know, the magic happens outside of this.
I don’t know if I want to explain further why I was alone, or even felt this loneliness.
Somehow it was connected for me.
Sadness has been a great part of my life.
However, this is also something ending, connected with that new decade where I am going to.
I hope so at least.
After rain comes sunshine, is what they are saying.
To be sad is a part of life.
The question of the difference between a relationship and commitment is one I still need to describe.
To make it clear for myself.
I mean, it is somewhere where I am going, what better way to write it down.
Something I am thinking.
To me there is a difference, one I am living.
I believe we think commitment is the same as a relationship and to some extent this is true also.
However we can be committed without being in a relationship.
This has been my base for a long time.
I was mainly committed to the things I was supposed to be doing, where there was no room for a relationship.
I believe even with purpose, for me to stay focussed on the things I was supposed to be accomplishing.
Sometimes as small as finishing a story of love.
It was the time I wasn’t looking for love, at least how I am calling that period.
I was committed to the things important to me at that point in my life.
For me to complete and finish these parts, to be committed with another person at a certain moment in the future.
When I think about it just now, I believe it was a time I was looking for love.
Just not one we know and think about as such.
I was looking for these parts residing in me, that needed time to develop.
For me to develop and complete myself, perhaps you can even call it becoming whole.
Being committed to myself was the framework for me to do so.
For you to know, this is an unknown love I have experienced.
When I think about it like this, it sounds so good to me.
It could be when these committed parts are completed, I can be committed with someone at one point in my life.
Which just sounds logical and almost like a fairytale.
I am glad I have been committed to myself in this way.
The difference in this context between a commitment and relationship has to do with the start.
Being committed to ourselves can result in being in a commitment called relationship.
If you’d ask me at least.
Where we are committed to ourselves in becoming those parts necessary to love.