It is a lost memory.
I lost it somehow.
The irony I remembered it just now.
It came back to me, because of some decisions I made.
About my life and about the things I was feeling.
Perhaps even things I have experienced.
To a new journey I am embarking and perhaps even have to face some people.
I don’t have any idea how I should be feeling.
My memory is showing me about an event, already some years ago.
It broke my heart, because I didn’t wish for it.
It didn’t want it to have it any other way, but it was just not anymore an option.
The same experience I am experiencing at the moment.
Perhaps this is why my mind is showing me.
Where I can learn from it, perhaps make a different choice.
Because sometimes it isn’t something what we want or what it is that we want to attract.
At the same time life has a different plan for us and says.
´This is happening for you for its specific reason´.
The only thing to do, is to take this chance and follow the current of the river.
And allong the way, keep on going.
Perhaps it is this sadness I feel, which is coming back as a memory.
I didn’t even know this is a possibility.
Where I can hear my own voice in the drama that was unfolding.
‘Who knows what is there for you waiting..’