A message on my phone I saw coming in.
I don’t know anymore if I was excited or not.
That feeling can sometimes be a bit the same.
I must have been tired for sure.
I was excited when I saw the name of the person on the screen.
We shared good moments, however texting wasn’t one of them.
It didn’t mean it was leaving me unnoticed.
The words I had a hard time to understand.
Perhaps even, because they were not my own.
However, the message was clear.
Something that was, was going to stop.
He wasn’t feeling it, to be in a relationship, at this moment.
His first words.
“I think you are amazing and super beautiful and hope we can be friends and still hang out as I like being with you”.
He put a picture of a hand with a thumb up and also another picture with two hands to each other.
A sign of being thankful, I guessed.
I don’t know what he really wanted to say with these two emoticons.
Maybe he needed a confirmation for himself and he was being thankful to himself to write this message.
His mind was clear about this, there wasn’t really an opening for me to say anything.
This message had nothing to do with me.
As he started the message, he was not feeling it, to be in a relationship, in this moment.
I think the moment was really not important.
The lack of a real existence of me in this message made me wonder.
Shouldn’t breaking up be as much as possible comforting, soothing, caring for the person that is getting broken up with?
Or is the world becoming a one man show, where we don’t have to take responsibility for other people’s feelings and existence?