“Venting is healthy and you should never refrain from it Lakshmi”.
The words gave me clear directions.
It was after a brave moment I had.
I said, “I am sorry, but I really need to complain”.
I followed with some more lines and also said :
“It is giving me a headache”.
It wasn’t a word vomit or something I needed to speak up about.
It was really something that was bothering me and that had made me sick.
The headache, not the complaint.
The complaint was just the way to release and to admit.
That this was boiling underneath the surface with me.
Not the tip of the iceberg.
I felt sick while typing those words in that conversation.
It was a chat actually.
I was showing my vulnerability, that it was bothering me.
The nausea started to leave, the chat conversation continued.
I was reading what other people were bothered with.
“Being in the same boat is a way of binding”, I said.
We were still talking in that chat.
“Thank you for letting me know, I will write about this”.
That is where I left.