It was late, close to midnight.
There were some drinks and even some cigarettes.
I wasn’t smoking any of them.
However sometimes I do, whenever I am in the mood or just because it is that kind of night.
Surely I am not a smoker.
Today was just a proper closing, after a hard day working.
It was what the pain in my feet was telling me.
The lights at the bar were soft.
An invitation for us to have just one more glass.
It was a memory that came to my mind of a conversation I once had.
However, I couldn’t really recollect if it was the same setting.
While I was hearing the words that were spoken.
I was still thinking about this conversation.
“I want to get to know the person first, when I start to have a relationship”, one of the girls said.
“Well, I just fuck”, was a reply of one of the guys.
He said it quite loudly.
I don’t really know why, because the words itself, made sense in itself.
“No, I want him to take me out first”, another girl said.
My mind was still spinning, thinking where I had this kind of conversation before.
I didn’t say anything and tried to understand what they were saying.
I was trying to grasp the essence of the conversation.
‘What were they asking?’
They weren’t waiting for an answer, but to me it sounded like that.
I believe we all want to be loved or just have a little company.
With someone that gives a good feeling, or sometimes doesn’t say anything.
Sometimes it is just what we need.
Someone, who let the words speak for themselves and who sometimes admits it also doesn’t have a clue what is happening.
It was the next day I found the answer to their question.
‘What do you do when you first meet someone?’
I was sitting on a little balcony, feeling the sun on my face.
I was talking about this conversation the others had, close before midnight.
I don’t really know why I was still thinking about it.
Sometimes it is just nice to talk a little bit about things we experienced or that happened.
The person I was speaking to had sort of the same question.
Perhaps it was why I was ventilating it this way.
For her the question was more in general.
‘Who is the right fit?’
It were the words I said that gave an answer to their question.
‘We are always looking for the outcome of something, but perhaps we need to let that open’.
I did say it on that balcony a little bit differently, but I believe the right thing can be said in different ways.
‘Instead of thinking that things have to go a certain way, perhaps we have to look at it a bit different’.
‘Perhaps it is that we need something’.
‘A conversation, or just something physical’.
To be open and let things happen.
At its own pace and time.
Because the essence of it all.
Love is all around.