What is a love relationship?
I believe a question nobody really thinks about.
At least I never spent any second thinking of it.
Until it came my way.
When I was thinking about it for the first time I realized it is something we take for granted.
Perhaps a bit too harsh to say.
I mean, it is there, without really realizing what it means.
Some questions were passing through my mind.
A little bit above my head.
This is where I was seeing them.
It was clear for me, writing down was a better place.
I don’t know if you can call it journaling.
Writing down to clear the mind, release those words for its purpose to reveal.
For whatever knowledge it might bring.
Or something like it.
As I said, I don’t know, it could be.
There is a lot when it comes to this question I have, or this thought.
I can’t say what it really is.
What is a love relationship?
It could be I am at the doorstep of something new.
Perhaps even a relationship.
Whatever that might be or say.
The question started to rise a few months ago.
‘What is a love relationship?’
I was writing one of my stories, like any other day.
The sun was shining, I was sitting inside.
I don’t know if it was the decor for me to understand, for this question start having its life.
Coming down through my mind.
It stayed with me ever since.
I knew there was a story behind it or at least that question :
‘What is a love relationship?’
I was in a place, one I liked and visited many times, not only when the sun was shining.
It didn’t really matter for that question, I have to say.
I believe it has happened many times already.
It was the first time I was seeing it.
Amazement was the feeling and I thought about it for some time.
There was a boy, talking with some girls.
It was more than flirting.
I couldn’t really say how to name it.
There was something going on for sure.
However his girlfriend was sitting at the table not far from this entourage.
I started to notice what happened, when she stood up and came standing next to him.
She started to talk, in a normal way.
Nothing excited, really.
‘Letting those girls know he was taken’.
The flirting stopped, at least from the side of the guy.
I couldn’t tell if those girls were interested in the first place.
But the question starting to rise, within myself :
‘What is a love relationship?’
They were in a relationship, however he was going very far with that kind of contact he was having with those girls. There were more than one and his girlfriend was just right there.
She noticed and I guess this is where I believe it happened before.
On and on.
So many more things were coming to the surface with me.
However, I don’t think it was meant for me to know.
I wasn’t in that kind of relationship with him and this is where the thoughts I had, stopped.
The only thing remaining was this question : ‘What is a love relationship?’
Does it mean we can do whatever comes up inside of us?
Perhaps not even something we are in control of and should we think ahead before making that move?
Just some things I was thinking about.
It happened to me also when I was talking with some guy.
I was invited to a party.
I was by myself, I was single.
There were mainly couples there.
Perhaps it was for this reason all of a sudden his girlfriend was standing next to him.
‘Making clear something’.
I don’t really know what it was.
He felt awkward, I could see by the look on his face.
I will leave in the middle what it could mean.
It didn’t really look promising to me.
The conversation stopped shortly after, she got what she wanted.
I don’t know if it was something nice to have.
I wasn’t feeling off guard when she stood next to him, I was just having a conversation.
I guess, I was a danger to this girl, to whatever they were having.
For some reason she felt the need to act, where of course I understood the message.
It made me later think about it and ask that question to myself.
‘Is that a love relationship?’
Honestly, I believe I had nothing to do with it.
Just some insecurity of that person, perhaps even both.
Perhaps something happened before with them and this was her way of handling it.
Not something particular they agreed on, just to make sure they wouldn’t have to go over it again.
I guess this is what it was saying to me.
It was the epiphany where they gave me an insight of their relationship.
It made me think, is this a way we have come to agree on, to accept that kind of behavior.
Whatever that is.
Or is it just a lack in themselves, this behavior is covering?
Whatever it is, I don’t agree with it.
I think this comes from the behavior of those men and women, who are taking a form of liberty.
Thinking they can do whatever.
Either something wild inside of them, they are unable to tame, or thinking they can act in a way to have some sort of control.
To me it is the same thing.
If a love relationship is that, I’d rather keep it close to myself.