An impasse in my writing, or just a small intermezzo.
Impasse is a bit negative and intermezzo, well, is the positive explanation of that.
The meaning of both means the same and that isn’t specific for my love journey or what I am going through.
Just a reality I am facing and it could be both positive and negative at the same time.
Sounds, good to me.
I guess.
It is not an insecurity that I am feeling, nor something that I am.
Just that I haven’t been writing so much lately.
I don’t even know if I am looking for any kind of explanation for that.
Just where I see the world passing before my eyes.
A life of the past.
However, I wrote about the lives I have already lived so many times.
It isn’t giving me any form of breakthrough in the life that I am living at the moment.
That is where I was wanting to write about a little bit more today.
A thought I was having, when I was reading one of my own stories.
As an inspiration and even a way for me to see where I am where I left writing for that time of being.
A thought I have been having already for a long time.
Better to say an inner knowing.
I am a real princess.
I have tried to make that known a few times, without the outcome I was looking for.
However, to me, that only means it is a step in the right direction.
An experience I need, a stepping stone that I can build further on.
So to say.
The outcome I had in mind as the way of success I am looking for.
The absence of that, doesn’t say anything more than that I am on my way.
You can even say that I am on the right track.
With that, my thoughts show me a question.
If that at all is something they can do.
‘What has this all to do with love?’
Is that question, that is coming in as a thought.
Honestly, I don’t know.
Love is not something I am looking for.
In the first place.
But you know, it makes sense to me that I write about it.
That it is my love journey.
Because my heart is pure.
Looking for love doesn’t fit that standard.
A princess is love in its essence.
Perhaps a new name I can add.
Something I have been trying to find, already a few times.
Princess of nothingness I called myself.
However, Princess of Love suits me better.
At least what I think.
The princess of love, writing about love.
That would make it complete.
A love journey from a real princess would sell.
The outcome I am looking for.
Because it is about the writing and not about me as such.
Which says something about me.
Although I am a princess, I am not just selling myself.
I can make it so much about myself, but that wouldn’t lead to that outcome I am looking for.
The writing is for people to read, to bring them further in life.
To grow and become, building a society that will last many liftetimes.
My journey of love is not just for me to poor my heart.
Although it is something I do, just not the base I am writing from.
Many examples of that out there, for the benefit of those.
Which already shows I am a real princess.
The words I speak, the thoughts I have about this.
It is the explanation of my own kindness in this situation.
A warm heart I am having.
However, it isn’t that difficult for me.
Since that is all that I am.
Love.
At least when I look in the mirror.
A self reflection of my own.
But even love needs something, perhaps even physically.
Not just words in the form of a writing or a name.
It is interesting to me.
I guess also something that I am.
At least speaking about love.