I must be still in the middle of the process and that makes it just interesting.
I was thinking about something that is happening quite often.
People move houses, move abroad more specifically and with no time they are in a relationship.
Involved in such a way.
I was surprised when I saw that happening. However I never questioned anything.
There was not a question I asked myself, let me say it like this.
Recently I moved abroad myself and I started to understand it better.
Finding stability and taking care of what needs to happen is a scary job.
It is easy to stay with your head somewhere in space.
Forgetting what is happening and oops, it just goes.
However, I do believe it happens with intent also.
What that is, I can’t really say.
It never really happened to me, I have only been a spectator to that kind of show.
I don’t really know what I am trying to say, I believe we take it for granted that this happens.
People are just doing this, without realizing.
I am not a savior of any kind, perhaps not even a hero to my own story.
Something I’d like to keep for now at least.
I don’t know what I feel when I see people having a relationship so soon, when they just move to another country.
I understand from one point, that it is something easy to do.
We can continue to live in this fantasy world, where we don’t have to take matters into our own hands.
Life becomes easy in a kind of way. We have something to live for, somewhere to go to.
We can pretend to be someone and live up to a standard.
For some, that is quite important.
I understand.
It can remove that feeling of loneliness which comes with moving abroad.
Dating and finding this kind of love is a mask to that.
Something I realized, because I have felt that pull, when moving abroad recently.
An urge, perhaps even necessity I have felt to meet guys.
I wondered where it came from and realized just this.
We have to be strong to stand on our feet and not get lost in fantasies.
Where it comes down to, we need to love ourselves first.