An experience I’d like to share, or just something that happened.
Actually I don’t really know, I am still not so sure how to put it on paper.
A vivid dream it felt to me, I think it was more something close to a reality.
About men doing what they want, except giving the love you deserve.
‘The man that doesn’t love you’, I’d like to call them.
It might not be his job, perhaps even in the first place.
Nothing he is aware of, or think he should fulfill.
If at all.
Painful is how it feels, though.
It goes deep in your vessels, perhaps your whole being.
A lack is to describe it, going to your brain even.
A reminder this is something how you feel, or at least how it felt to me.
A love where men make you their priority, spend time with you for your sake.
Comforting your needs and I am not even speaking about them making food for you, taking you out for dinner or paying for whatever you desire and never think will ever happen.
It is just a description of what some women think should be available to them, or at least what the mind of these women ought to believe.
Mostly after a relationship with a man that does what he wants, except loving them.
I don’t know if that is a crowd I belong to.
I don’t think I am, where I would like to leave it.
Because the story goes differently.
It is just a form of depression speaking, when these women expressing their thoughts, this love they feel they deserve to have.
After having this kind of a relationship with a man that doesn’t love them and just does what he wants instead.
These women are being open to that kind of desire.
However it is not realistic, one that is sustainable.
At least if you’d ask me.
I mean, there is nothing wrong with wanting to be loved and having this desire of a so-called love.
When expressing it the way these women do, it comes from a point of lack.
Something these women are seeing, perhaps even feeling.
Words they speak to themselves as a wish this is what men have to give to them and have to notice somehow.
But the question is how will they ever?
These men are only doing what they want and everything that belongs to that reach.
You can think for yourself if loving you is one of those things.
It makes sense when you think about it.
Because when you think of it, you understand these women are chasing a death horse.
Really.
Sorry to be this blunt.
I guess that’s just the only way to shake up your system.
So, it makes logical sense these men will never even get to that place.
Of what some women think these men should be doing, a desire they feel should be fulfilling.
Whatever that might be.
However it is just what the cells of these women are shouting, but none of them are heard, from those men they want it from.
Just a harsh truth, I guess.
I believe it shouldn’t become an objective for those women, trying to get this love they think they deserve.
Because whatever they are attracted to after that relationship, perhaps even during.
Where they felt they deserve to be loved.
It will still remain a form of lack, or at least what I think.
I don’t know if I should go deeper into this topic and share more of my truth.
Because who am I?
Honestly?
I am just a girl sharing what I am finding and I think this is what it is about.
The core of it, these women are lacking something in themselves, which can truly be anything. Perhaps something for them to find out.
Even.
Their mind and body is translating it to something where they think they are deserving of, to fill that emptiness from the inside.
There is nothing sad about it, just what it is.
To leave it there and then.
Congratulations, I guess.
You made it.
Because the real story is about these men, doing what they want, except loving you.
Where I would like to shine the light on, because these men want all for themselves.
Giving them this acknowledgement.
I am not saying it in a bad way, but they are just doing what they want, which is more or less the end of it.
When we say it the way it is, it will stay on the side where it belongs and doesn’t interfere with us.
Leaves us alone, perhaps even forgets about us completely.
With any luck, he will take everything with him, even if that barely fits his car.
Isn’t that great?
I think yes and we can move forward with our life, the way it is meant to.
I am just here to give them this favor.
Perhaps even giving back to them what they deserve.
Nothing bad or causing any harm to them.
Just making known there are these men out there who do whatever they want, except loving you.
To give them their identity and form of existence.
Doesn’t that sound lovely?
To me it does.
Because when we think about it like this.
The light will shine on the right things and places, for us to go in and outside.
Wherever that might be.
All those desires, those feelings of what you think is meant for you will disappear.
Send to a place outside of yourself, where it belongs and doesn’t bother you.
Where you don’t get a headache or where you constantly thinking about it.
Searching for this something which might always remains a mystery.
I believe it is a waste of time.
Although, I know you didn’t ask any question.
It just gives a piece of mind, is what I am saying.
A release in the heartspace and opens up the chakras connected to it.
To balance out those deeper feelings and emotions.
Erasing the memories connected to it.
To forget about this lost love, where you felt you were missing out on everything you were in deservedness of.
To make space for a love you feel for yourself.