I am talking about the negativity I am seeing.
The stories I am hearing, about relationships.
Complaining about the other half, excuses why people stay together with each other or just some other example in that category.
It is those whispers of the wind which have become a common tune.
A frequency we think we should be vibing and we start to think this is all there is.
Something I was thinking.
It has become a reason I have become fearful, even afraid to commit.
Because if the whispers of the wind are common sense.
It can make us afraid.
A problem, at least for me.
I thought about it for a little.
The fact certain examples can have an impact, does something to your system.
If I want to get rid of the feeling I am experiencing, perhaps I should change my own ways.
Something I was thinking.
I think, in general my love journey is quite uplifting and so this story fits just right in.
I thought to write something positive, instead of all those messages out there already.
An example I can give is there is a lot to do about age.
When speaking about an older woman, dating a younger man.
Well, I don’t have to go into details.
There is enough already.
All those things said, keeps being repeated by anyone.
Not one particular in specific.
It was surprising to me and made me start questioning.
Does it say anything about those relationships?
Why do these people come together if the answer they provide is nothing different from others?
If there is so much negativity around it, why would you want to have that kind of relationship?
Is negativity the only thing we know?
In any sense and form?
These were the main question at the bottom.
But you know, this is my observation of what I see.
Perhaps even feel and what I am thinking.
It made me realize we need to have something else put out there.
To me all of this is making me afraid, where people always have something to say about anything.
I thought about something else I was feeling.
I believe I am even proud of this.
I am 40 and still not married.
It is the pressure I have felt for so long.
To fulfill some expectations, have a certain job, get children before a specific age.
Provide the outside world an explanation for god know’s why.
However it is not about this.
It is about the positivity I was able to conquer.
Facing my own fears, because that is what is underneath all of it.
Where at the end I am not married at the age of 40.
My plate is still empty, a page to be written still.
A virgin in some sense and this is where I am proud.
I was able to look myself in the mirror and not follow the road of what I was supposed to.
What others were saying, perhaps even doing.
Keeping my foot down and crying those tears, to release the loneliness it was giving.
When people are for no reason mingling in your life and think they have a right to say something about you, for the sake of I don’t know.
This is where the negativity should stay.
To those wanting to know something they shouldn’t.
For me to say the light I have found in myself, there is no shame in the road I have embarked.
Staying alone for as long as I could, to let the world know underneath all those questions why I wasn’t married, didn’t have children and all those other pieces of advice with the best intentions.
It is no longer making me doubt myself, where I proudly can say I made it this far.
The world looks promising to me and I believe a lot comes from the fact, because I did it this way.
Where I didn’t get into a relationship for just some reason or got married because someone told me it was a good idea.
It is the liberty I feel, where I will commit whenever the time is right.
I believe this is the only reason to commit and go about.
To find that partner for love or life.
However, it doesn’t matter.
The message I want to be known is, it is ok to choose your own path and find whatever suits you best.
In every aspect of life, not just love.
Because sometimes we don’t know, let alone we know what someone else should be doing.
In whatever way.
Let everyone find out what they like and what kind of life they want to live.
If that is one involves being married, with children or just alone, it doesn’t matter.
The most import part is you are happy.