I stared at the screen of my phone, I didn’t know what to think.
‘What had I just done?’
It must have come out of the blue.
I didn’t have the intention to break up.
I felt I needed to do it, for myself.
Hee. I don’t think we should meet anymore. As much as I really like to meet and be around you.
I think we are not looking for the same thing. I feel I am worried about it and I am not in the mood to be in that place. I am sorry to say, because I really enjoy being with you. But I think it is just better for me this way.
I looked again at the words.
Even if I was reading the words over and over again.
Somehow it didn’t make me feel good.
As much as I was proud to have said those words.
It was an underlying feeling of dissatisfaction.
It gave me more worries than I already had about this situation.
I felt I did the right thing, to end it.
Feeling good about it was something else.
I was wondering.
Has the world become such a place, whenever we feel the need to stick up for ourselves we start to feel bad about it?
I hadn’t even started about his ‘thumbs up’ as a reaction to my words.
Since when is this a reaction to let someone know we shouldn’t be meeting anymore?
Is the lack of communicative skills something we should worry about?
Or is this something we should just compromise?
It is leaving me with the thought.
Has the world become something we give up easily?