The last days have been weird.
I really can’t put a different word to it.
It was a lost love that made this happen.
Or just a name that I am giving him.
One of many names that I called him.
And for some reason I am feeling a bit sad that this is a name that I have to add to this list of names.
Why I can’t really say.
Just a deeper feeling that something is unfinished.
Although the information I am receiving is about someone I know.
The truth is that we are not together and I have to understand what I need to be doing, to be involved in the right way.
It is not that I am desperate or am trying to get involved, only because I have been receiving this kind of information.
In that sense, I am disconnecting from this and would like to understand what it is that I need in a relationship.
Apart from knowing it is him.
The last couple of days I have been sick.
A slow down of my body.
And many more things.
To give me time for things I needed to learn and know.
A time for introspection and insights for my being.
To understand and grow to become again healthy.