The Love Journey of Lakshmi
I told myself that I am letting go of what I am.
Perhaps just for this story, to understand better, what it is I am meaning.
Or that I need a little bit more healing.
It is my mind that has been going back to a couple of years ago.
Where I was in a relationship but didn’t have the strength to let go of that person.
Although the information I am receiving is about someone I know.
The truth is that we are not together and I have to understand what I need to be doing, to be involved in the right way.
It is not that I am desperate or am trying to get involved, only because I have been receiving this kind of information.
In that sense, I am disconnecting from this and would like to understand what it is that I need in a relationship.
Apart from knowing it is him.
It is not that I want to speak about some content that I have been seeing.
Rather that I want to clarify some things about the female being.
Perhaps I am becoming a feminist, or something I already was.
Now it is just ready to be blooming.
The irony is of course that it comes from some content that I have been watching, that brought it to my surface. The things I want to be speaking about.
I don’t know exactly anymore how we finished the conversation.
But I remember turning around again and sitting behind my computer.
I was at work, having this conversation.
While staring at the screen of the computer, I had to think of my mother.
How I could still feel her. Around me.
Tears were coming up.